Dear Mr. Blog,
Oh dear...I have joined the masses in broadcasting my life (or parts thereof at least) to the world...and yes, I admit Im excited about it. I couldnt really say why...maybe because it will end my years of procrastinating with starting a journal...and maybe because it might actually keep me motivated to change parts of my life I am not happy with. Irregardless, here I am, and here I begin.
I could bore you with all the mundane details about my life and my reasons for documenting it, but simply put, I want to record my journey with weight loss. Of course weight loss is not the centre of my life, and therefore other aspects of it will feature in this journal, but suffice it to say I think losing weight will be enough to fill quite enough space...
Simply put, I am a mother to two gorgeous young boys: Carter (3 years) and Cade (3 months). I have been married to a wonderful man, Jonno, for 6 1/2 years now, and I would say our marriage foundation is stronger today than ever. I have always struggled with my weight...was on my first diet at the ripe old age of 8. I was very active as a child with dancing, and a little less so in my teenage years although I dabbled in cheerleading and basketball (which I SUCKED at). It seems that after I stopped dancing at age 14, my fitness level started to slowly dwindle to where it is today: walking up and down our stairs several times a day...and only because I have to. I have had "spurts" of attempts to get fit and lose the weight...always 1 step forward, 2 steps back. I havent weighed myself since I gave birth to Cade, as I know for certain that I have gained weight. See, I lose weight during pregnancy...something about higher metabolism, etc...but as soon as I get the kid out, the scale starts to climb again. Suffice it to say, I am pretty sure I have about 55kg (120lb) to lose. That seems a mammoth task...overwhelming in fact. But, I will have smaller goals, each rewarded with something desired. And with each new goal, I will continue to reassess my final goal weight. I cant think about 55kg...but I can focus on 10kg at a time.
Now, my reasons for losing weight...virtually the same as everyone elses: I want to live to see my kids grow up, I want to be able to run around with my very active boys, I want to fit into a size 6 jean, etc. But equally as important, I want to be someone my hubby isnt ashamed to be seen in public with...I want to enjoy sex without feeling self conscious...I want to avoid suffering infertility for 18 months again...I want to get rid of my pcos and insulin resistance, so I can finally get laser hair removal(!)...I want a tropical holiday in a bikini...I want to be a sexy pregnant woman and get the birth I have longed for...I want to not have to worry about getting charged extra for an airline seat...I want to pay less for normal size clothing...the lists goes on and on and on.
Ideally, I would love to start my new lifestyle with a proper detox and in the gym...however, being that I am still breastfeeding, I am not able to proceed with a detox...and being that Cade isnt full immunised against whooping cough for another couple of months (which we are seeing a huge outbreak of at the moment), I am not able to get to the gym yet either. So, I will be modifying my diet, sticking to 1800-2000 cals a day and cutting out carbs after 3pm. I will be trying to stick to low-GI carbs during the day, and having only one small fun-size treat a day to ward off the sugar cravings. Exercise will be done at home in way of videos (Taebo-in' it) and walking with the boys when not raining/too cold. If I see success with this, I will wait a bit before joining the gym again to save some money...but I will be back at the gym in the near future, as I see it as "me time" with the kids in care, and really do love the atmosphere and inspiration it provides.
So Monday it all begins...again, and hopefully for good. My current weight and measurements will appear in Mondays post...Im really dreading it. I will also include starting pics...ugh.
So, Mr. Blog, we have been introduced...may this relationship stand the test of time.
